Crazy dream. I was hanging out with a couple of my old friends. We were I cited to stay with a couple of guys that we went to school with. They were rich, like millionaire rich. We were having fun. They took us out shopping we all exchanged ideas for their business. We were having lots of fun. Ne and a couple of girls decided to go for a swim. When we went to the pool I saw a famous singer. One of my friends tell me to get her autograph for her. So I went to get it. The bitch tells me that it was rude of me to ask her for it. That if I truly wanted the autograph that I better leave and acknowledge the I was a nobody. I didn't like what she said so I told her for get about the autograph and that she had no rights to talk to me like that. So I went back to my room to pack. As I was telling my friends what had happen they had sadness written all over their face. So I started packing. Then here comes the famous bitch. To tell my friend that she doesn't want me here anymore that I had to leave. I just looked at her and told her that I was already leaving. We cursed at each other and she walked out. Then my aunt and her son walks in. I gave them an attitude and because of that my cousin asks a man to kill me. The guy missed and I continue packing as I'm packing they wanted know what I had, my friends had to tell them nothing that everything was borrowed, just so I could keep my stuff. In the end I ended up giving it to them. And then I woke.
- Current Location:US, California, San Diego, Cushing Rd, 1908
- Current Mood: pissed off
- Current Mood: blank
- Current Mood: sad
For this year I decided to take matters in my own hands. I'm going to fall through everything that I put my mind to. I love to travel but I can't do that because I don't have any money for me to actually just take off. So I decided to go back to school to finish my degree as a licensed vocational nurse. It's not my number one choice but it is the easiest for me. Then I would get a job as soon as I'm done with school.
I finally realized that I am extremely fat. So my goal for this year is to loose weight. I want to go shopping, I want to have more than2 pair of pants. At least one skirt or one dress. I don't own any of those. I want to wear heels again. And most of all I want to be able to run my 10 miles a day again. I miss running so much. I miss it with a passion. So from now on I'm going to work hard to achieve my goals. They are not impossible goals, all I have to do is put my ass into it. I usually let people put me down. Not anymore. I'm going to set an example for the little one. Oh yeah and I almost for got. I'm going to put her in dance school. I think it's time for her to learn what music feels like. I know this sounds weird. But music has a feeling. What do you think about my decision?
- Current Location:lair
- Current Mood: hopeful
- Current Music:Decale Gwada- Jessy matador
- Current Location:my lil bubble
- Current Mood: awake
- Current Music:shakira
Nothing..... Never been in love....
- Current Mood: tired
I'm going to re-invent my self. that will be my new year resolution.....
- Current Mood: creative
When I got married I wasn't sure what I was doing. I did it just because. I've known him for 6 years before that so I thought I was doing the right thing. But I realized that I made a mistake the day of the wedding but there was nothing that I could have done. My husband left the day after the wedding due to military orders. We didn't see each other for almost a year. Through out that time I didn't really give mind to it because he was never home. So it was easy to live a life. For the last 2 years he has barely been home, so again it was easy for me. But he has been home for almost a year now and there is nothing that I can do. I know in my heart that I'm not happy and that I'm not in love with him. But then again I have never been in love that I can remember. I see people in love in movies and in real life but I don't ever recall being or feeling like that ever. My husband is a great man, but there is nothing there. I feel like I'm holding him back from actually being with some one that could make him happy the way he deserves. I have tried talking to him about it but nothing works. It's not like I'm cheating or have any ideas to do so. It's just that I feel locked down. Like I can't do anything in life because of the relationship that we have. I don't know. Maybe I just need to give it time. I think....
- Current Mood: apathetic